My challenge is cruising along, I’m on day 28 of my 30 day meditation challenge. Sitting for 20 minutes is now no trouble at all. It doesn’t matter how bad my allergies are acting up, how tired or cold I am, how hungry I am or how late I might be for a meeting 🙂 , I can sit for 20 minutes no matter what. That’s big progress. I’m also beginning to realize that there is a saying that will probably be very familiar to you, that is absolutely not true. Here it is:
Ignorance is bliss
I say this because over the past few weeks my mind has seemingly grown more distracted and my time sitting in meditation is seemingly less fruitful now than when I first began this challenge. At first I was thinking that maybe I wasn’t meditating properly, but quickly realized what a dumb thought that was. There are some guidelines to help you get meditate, but there are really limitless methods and tools people use. The major point is to just sit still and bring your attention to the present moment. Exactly how you choose to do so is up to you really.
I’ve come to realize that it is not that my mind is becoming more and more distracting by having to sit still for 20 minutes twice a day. It is simply that I am now able to actually notice the distractions that have been there all along. I’ve been ignorant to the fact that for the majority of my waking life I am really not present with anyone or in any situation. I’m either thinking about the past, dwelling on some prior event, or dreaming hopefully about the future.
I am rarely present and this is what I’ve been having to deal with in my meditations. In sitting still, I can really see my mind race. I observe the games it plays, tempting me to peak at the clock, or get up and do something else, or daydream, or do anything but pay attention to the present moment. I’m becoming far more aware of this fact, and I’d be lying if I said it didn’t cause me angst. The good news is, now I am aware of the fact – which means I am no longer ignorant! Ignorance is not bliss, it is just a mask that keeps you from experiencing the world as it really is, not as you dream it to be.